Wednesday, June 16, 2010

I'm trying an expiriment . . . . .

I'm going to be scientific. I can picture myself right now in a crisp white lab coat, clipboard in hand, hair pulled back and slightly disheveled, with a pencil held loosely in my mouth.

Because apparently that's how I'd look if I was being scientific. I don't know why. Don't judge me.

Anyway, if you read my bloggy blog at all, you know I have depression. You also know that I recently switched medications. I'm on a new antidepressant called Prestique. Sounds fancy, yeah? So, it's going pretty well. Could be better, but I've only been on it for 4 weeks and it can take a minimum of 6-8 weeks to reach therapeutic levels.

But I've had some really bad days. And I mean bad. I've been keeping track of my bad days and the circumstances around those days. What happened the previous day, that morning, what made me feel better, worse, etc. Some of my bad days, like last Saturday, were full-on depression (which spawned my latest painting). Some days, like yesterday, are a "down" feeling coupled with anger. Neither are pleasant.

I have noticed a common factor, however.

Sugar.

Yes, sugar. It seems that if I consume a large amount of sugar, the following day I feel like complete shit. Either the depressed or the very angry. Which sucks because sugar is sooooo fucking good. I mean, come on. Who doesn't like cookies and cupcakes and whatnot????

So here's what I'm going to do: try and cut out most sugar. Meaning, no soda, no candy or chocolate, no cakes, cupcakes, or cookies.

Do you realize how much this is going to suck????

But, if it keeps me from feeling like shit all the time, I'm all for it.

One thing I won't give up is my flavored coffee creamer. I can't do the sugar-free crap. It tastes like, well, crap.

I'm totally a scientist.

1 comment:

MAB Jewelry said...

Good luck, scientist girl. Let us know how it foes. And actually this is really impressively logical!