Frustrated

Do you know how annoying it is to be on meds for bipolar and still be having hypomania? It's getting old. At first, I was all about the hypomanic states. I had tons of energy, I was always in a good mood, quick to laugh . . . it was kinda nice. Especially compared to my depression.
But the mania is now becoming a nuissance. I'm getting more and more inappropriate at work, cussing a lot more, and feeling unstable in my moods.
NOT a good sign.
I have yet to find a psychiatrist who is accepting new patients and my PA I've been seeing, she's great, but psych is not her specialty. I'm worried I'll have to switch up my meds and start all over.
So it's frustrating, to say the least. I have to make a very strong conscious effort to keep control of my behavior. And it's getting tiresome. I'm at the point where I don't really know what to do. I've been wanting to go out less and less because I'm worried about how I'll act.
And as I'm writing this, I feel like I'm going to cry, whereas this morning I was hyper and manic. I'm cycling rapidly.
If y'all have any suggestions, I'd love to hear them.

I'm venting - you've been warned.

I'm using my blog to vent today. About what you ask? Lots of shit. I've been ridiculously cranky lately. Last week I could blame it on PMS, but not now. I've been trying to pinpoint what's been at the root of my anger. I have some ideas:

1. Cupcakes. I'm mad because I can't have one every day. There's a fab new cupcake store near my house and it's freaking awesome!!! Check out their site.

2. Polymer clay. I can't figure out how to incorporate it into my plushies. Like, making a skull head out of clay with a plush body. How the hell should I attach it?

3. Puppies. Why the hell do they have to be so cute??

4. Potty training. Good LORD it's frustrating

5. Sour krout. No. Just . . .no.

6. And this. Although I find it quite amusing. Um, and disturbing. Yeah. Probably not safe for work. Jus' sayin'.

So, this isn't everything getting on my nerves, but golly do I feel better venting!